Epilogue

Picture a hotel suite, with real potted palms in the corners, and champagne on ice, crowded with people in various forms of finery–you know, some dressed up, some dressed down, because it’s all about establishing cred. It looks like a hundred other music biz after parties, and when Sarah stumbles into me as if she’s drunk–but isn’t–and hooks Ziggy with the other arm to say into both our ears “Run interference for me, will you? The tall one with the chain.”–it isn’t even the first time we’ve done this for her.

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Here’s Where The Story Ends

(and liner note!)

Court and I stayed for a few more days in Tennessee after everyone else went home, to help Janine cope and to “be there” for Landon.

I didn’t really know what “being there” would entail, but it turns out that literally just being there was good. I have no idea how a six-year-old processes that his grandmother is gone, especially when she’d essentially disappeared from his life six months earlier, which is forever at that age. But apparently having a favorite aunt and uncle around helped. After we’d said goodbye to everyone who’d come to the funeral, we moved out of the hotel and into Janine’s house for half a week.

Speaking of goodbyes, I should tell you about the goodbye hug I had with Colin, because I know you’ll appreciate it.

I remember the hug, I just don’t remember exactly when it happened. It was at one of the stops on the Claire Farewell Tour, probably the reception at the hotel. A good, long hug from Colin made all kinds of things loosen up in my brain and my chest.
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(Today’s chapter… coming tomorrow instead…)

Hi, folks! ctan here! I’ve been trying to post today’s chapter since last night. Got hung up trying to decide what song to use as title, couldn’t commit to one of the choices, then crashed and fell asleep before I could get it set up. Today’s been a whirlwind of last minute meetings and phone calls and tasks and errands before I leave for Italy for vacation tomorrow. (corwin’s over there already on a business trip and I’m flying to meet him in Venice.) I don’t know who’s more tired out from this last set of chapters, me or Daron!

Anyway, I went to set up the post again a little while ago, but like the previous one (with Ziggy’s “confession”), this post is an important one to get right/ I decided I had to fix something in it that I realized I had glossed over, and… next thing you know I’ve got the hood up and parts strewn all over the garage. So we’ll take this ride tomorrow. All right?

While I have you here, just a quick reminder that if you want to be notified by email when things are happening in the Daronverse, including new book releases, Kickstarters, chats, whatever, we have an infrequently used announcement newsletter you can subscribe to: http://bit.ly/MoondogFans

See you tomorrow.

-ctan

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Crucify

Turned out that was Patty I saw in the crowd at the service. I know because later, I went looking for Ziggy outside the church, and eventually found him practically holding Patty and Digger apart at arm’s length. He caught sight of me and gave me a look that I took to mean get out of here and let me handle this.

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Divine Thing

Salt water is bad for wood. You don’t want to know what tears did to the varnish on the top of the Miller. Okay, I’m being dramatic. It wasn’t any worse than the spot on the body where the sleeve of my flannel shirt wore it thin. We all get scars on our skin from the things that hurt us as we get through life. Wear them with pride.
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Live and Let Die

After my sister left, I sat there with the Miller in my lap, but I couldn’t quite bring myself to play it. I felt like if I tried to start playing or singing I was just going to cry my eyes out, and that would hurt like hell. I wasn’t ready for it to hurt that much.

So I sat there, without moving, just breathing. In the back of my mind I think I was going over the song, but maybe I was just blank. When I try to meditate, I can never get to that state. Seems unfair, doesn’t it?

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Goodbye Cruel World

Life felt very unreal for the next few days, like I was in a cellophane bubble. That feeling was uncomfortably similar to the way I’d felt while we were in South America. Like I could go through the motions but I was somehow walled off from everyone else by glass.
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Heaven Sent

I was the last of my mother’s children to arrive at her room that night. All my sisters were already there.

I’m not really sure Claire still was. She had lapsed into unconsciousness shortly after asking for me. Remo and the three of them were gathered around her bed, waiting to see if she would wake up again.
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Don’t Let the Sun Go Down On Me

Claire was alert again, and she was asking for me. And there I was not even wearing pants.

I told them to tell her I’d be there as fast as I could. I threw on clothes while Ziggy threw some stuff into a bag and went to pull the car around so I could just jump in once I was dressed.
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Take My Breath Away

Two more days went by before I went back to the hotel for a real shower and a break. A few times Claire had looked around and made eye contact, but it was like she was looking at us through one-way glass and couldn’t see us looking back at her.

Ziggy came with me and we got in the shower together. Relief was quick, hot, and wet. He got out when we were done with each other and I washed and conditioned my hair so I could comb through it carefully and not yank the extensions. I did the first round of combing while rinsing the conditioner out, so it took a while. The hotel brand of conditioner smelled a little like oranges but mostly like some fruit that never existed.

When I shut off the water and climbed out, I could hear Ziggy’s voice. It sounded like he was on the phone. I cracked open the door to hear better.
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