Fanworks: Song “Relationship Status” by Megmakes

As promised, here’s another song that Meg sent! She writes:

The background on this one is: Basically it’s kind of a song-ified version of Chapter 584, “Touch and Go”, and some of Daron’s frustrations preceding, therein, and further perpetuated by the chapter.

When I first read it I was just as surprised as Daron was at just *how* angry and closed off Ziggy got during the chapter. Granted, I realized going in that they were still in an undefined and unconfirmed place in terms of their relationship (in both the personal and professional sides, really), and that if anything on any level settled, it wasn’t going to do so easily, but still. The awesome description at one point, of how Ziggy’s face “closed like a storefront bringing down a chainlink gate”, is pretty much how I felt by the end of this chapter. Crash. The fact that it was also the end of that particular Part of the story made the feeling of a dead stop land even harder.

So pretty much it was another chapter that just kind of hit me as I read it, stuck with me as I moved on through the story (though I’m only about 30 chapters further than this; still a loooong way to go to being caught up to present happenings), and a song eventually came out of it.

Also, fun fact, the original title of the song was going to be “New York is Not an Easy Place for Us”, because jeez, it never seems to be. Especially the last couple times they were there before this. But on one of my re-read’s of the chapter I caught Daron’s mention of their “relationship status” and was like… yeah, that fits much better.

Lyrics:

Relationship Status
by megmakes

A(nother) fan song for Daron’s Guitar Chronicles by Cecilia Tan

It’s cold on this sidewalk
But not as cold as your heart
My confidence is slanting
Like these winter sun rays before dark

Why do I have to remind you
Of my confession in that park?
When I told you that I loved you
Was it enough or just another false start?

Is it always going to go ’round like this
My lover, singer, friend?
How do I learn when a new beginning’s just
The beginning of another end?
’cause the paths always look the same
The only difference is the bends
And I can never tell how bad things’ll twist
Never how, where, or when

In Boston I thought we had it
Your body and words are vivid in my brain
Then sure as shit we lost our grip
When we came ‘round New York again

You said you saw an out
Where I still see a sudden dead end
You feel like you sold your soul to save me
I feel like my life was the one to be damned

Is it always going to go ’round like this
My lover, singer, friend?
How do I learn when a new beginning’s just
The beginning of another end?
’cause the paths always look the same
The only difference is the bends
And I can never tell how bad things’ll twist
Never how, where, or when

A few fights and hot nights in LA
And one very warm Carlyle stay
I don’t know what sense or what difference
That all may have made

Maybe it just proves we can be together
But still not be in the same place
And standing here that’s made uncomfortably clear
By that severe look on your face

Is it always going to go ’round like this
My lover, singer, friend?
How do I learn when a new beginning’s just
The beginning of another end?
’cause the paths always look the same
The only difference is the bends
And I can never tell how bad things’ll twist
Never how, where, or when…