Under Pressure

Detroit is kind of an ugly town, at least the parts of it I noticed, haphazardly burned out and deserted right in the midst of otherwise normal-looking cityscape. I suppose New York is similar, only New York is so crammed it makes for a different effect.

The inside of the music hall was about the same as anywhere else, though. After sound check we met a reporter from a local magazine or newspaper who didn’t have very many questions and looked to be more interested in the band who were opening for us, a local act that BNC was courting much the way they had courted us. Sound check was uneventful except for the way Bart flubbed the ending of “Why the Sky” and took off his bass and left the stage. I can’t describe it as storming off because he seemed neither angry nor in a hurry. Chris and Zig shrugged at each other and then Zig looked at me and said “Must have been something he ate.”

I didn’t go running after him–why?–Bart would tell me what he thought when he was ready to.

I was walking down the hall toward the men’s room when I ran into Digger, literally; our shoulders bounced off one another and we both said “ow” in the same voice. And then we were looking into each other’s eyes.

“Sorry,” I said.

“Hey, kiddo, that’s okay. Are you doing alright?” This time I heard what I would have to call fatherly concern in his voice.

“Yeah. Yeah, just a little tense.”

He looked over one shoulder, then the other, and then he crooked me a smile. “Ah, I seen it all before. At your age especially, kiddo. Let me tell you something. I know you’re trying hard to be real professional here, and do this right.”

“Uh huh.” I could not guess what he was driving at with this, so I tried to hang in with encouraging nods.

“Sure thing, I see it. She’s sweet, and I know she’s Remo’s friend’s daughter, but come on, boy, she’s been going to bed alone every night, by herself, you know? That girl has a huge sweet spot for you. I know I’m supposed to be speaking as a manager here, but just man to man, I really think you’d feel better if you’d quit being a pansy about this and give her what she wants.” His voice dropped low on those last three words as if they were too obscene to say aloud, even without polite company.

“What she wants,” I repeated, a bit dumbfounded by the whole exchange.

“You’ll feel better. This kind of tension isn’t healthy. And I tell you what else, if you don’t, one of these other studs is going to get on her. That’s why they’re all so antsy; it’s an unresolved thing, like a pack of dogs and only one piece of meat, you know? Just do her, set the rules, you know, you’ll make her happy that way. It’s you she wants. She talks about you all the effin’ time. I think it’ll help you relax, too.”

I’m sure my face was red, not with embarrassment, but outrage. He’d just likened Carynne to a piece of meat, and my friends to a pack of dogs. I wanted to tell myself: he doesn’t mean it that way. But that’s just the thing, he did mean it that way. And then I had another icky thought–he probably thought of himself as one of those dogs, too, like he was eligible to have a crack at her if I didn’t do my duty. Ick. My pulse picked up and I stammered out “Yeah, I’ll think about that,” and took an obvious step toward the men’s room door.

“You do that,” he said, sounding jovial, to my back. “I guarantee! You’ll feel better!”

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Comments 8

  1. Jude wrote:

    Maybe if I think my hate at Digger hard enough, he’ll burst into flames. It would improve the world immeasurably.

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    daron Reply:

    I had the same thought a lot while growing up. Then again, I think so did my mother.

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    Posted 15 Nov 2010 at 10:21 am
  2. BriAnne wrote:

    Wow. Your father is a really disgusting example of humanity. I think I need a shower after that.

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    daron Reply:

    I keep thinking he must be kidding. But no.

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    Posted 15 Nov 2010 at 10:56 am
  3. Ashley wrote:

    *incoherent rage* Ewwwwww! Digger is beyond disgusting. He gave me the creeps before, but now… Well, I’d just like him to disappear.

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    Jude Reply:

    I feel end-of-Digger fanfic coming on…

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    daron Reply:

    Have him win the lottery first though, and then will it all to me, before you off him. OK?

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    daron Reply:

    Is he a creep, or is he just typical of everything that’s wrong with his generation?

    Hm, or both. It’s hard for me to judge, given that I didn’t think too highly of him in the first place.

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    Bill Heath Reply:

    Digger was born during the depression and came of age following WW II. Let’s assume his family was poor (pretty safe assumption). His earliest lessons were to scrabble for everything. As he was coming of age he saw some people getting a lot, the level of wealthy generally rising, and some remained poor.

    Let’s assume his family remnained poor. And that, like so many of today’s politicians, he blamed wealth and income inequality on others’ greed.

    Voila! There’s Digger. Dog-eat-dog world, he deserves what everybody else has and if he can take it he will. No moral compass, no empathy, views others as tools for his use.

    My father came of age during the Depression in a poor family. He learned a different lesson: community and sharing.

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    daron Reply:

    Yeah, I assume he had a tough life and had to take care of himself, but that’s no excuse for being a slime.

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    Posted 15 Nov 2010 at 11:06 am
  4. whatisit wrote:

    Haha, I think maybe he is a little right about what’s wrong with Daron, though he may be looking in the wrong direction. Or not. I don’t know!

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    ctan Reply:

    Digger has an uncanny ability to be right and wrong at the same time! Heh.

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    Posted 15 Nov 2010 at 12:37 pm
  5. Rikibeth wrote:

    Ewwwww.

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    daron Reply:

    No lie bwana.

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    Posted 15 Nov 2010 at 4:50 pm
  6. sephydoll wrote:

    ehh, who said you had to love your parents?!

    I wonder if he would stop working for you if he knew you weren’t into girls? Would he stoop that low? Maybe?

    And poor you, suffering the pressure from the tour and then there is also that “other pressure” called Ziggy and his phermones ;o)

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    daron Reply:

    Well, that’s the question isn’t it? Will Digger figure me out and kick me to the curb again? And will I be better equipped to handle his disapproval now than I was when I was younger? Why do I give a fuck what he thinks? I can’t help it, I guess.

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    Posted 15 Nov 2010 at 8:11 pm
  7. Sara Winters wrote:

    All right. Carynne has grown on me (as opposed to when I wanted to scream at her jumping poor Daron when he least suspected it was coming). Now? I’d like to see her get a hold of someone’s stun gun (would security at one of these places have one?) and fry Digger in the nuts until he pops a blood vessel in his eye. Pretty sure that’s just far enough past the line of subtlety to make the point.

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    ctan Reply:

    I doubt venue security could get licensed to use tasers. Besides, they were expensive in the 80s…

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    Posted 21 Nov 2010 at 8:34 pm
  8. s wrote:

    Part of me was hoping you’d stay something along the lines of, “Maybe I would if she was a guy.”

    Sorry. I have no real idea what you are going through or what it would be like to tell your obnoxious father you are into guys…but you do have my sympathy, if that counts for anything.

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    daron Reply:

    Sympathy counts for a lot. <3

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    Posted 27 Mar 2015 at 9:46 pm

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