Saturday bonus post! Today, I thought I’d give you a glimpse of the notebook Daron looked through in the post earlier this week, filled with the songs Ziggy has been writing. Here are just a few, and they’re still rough notes, since until he and Daron sit down and work out the details of the song, the lyrics could always change. I’m fairly sure Ziggy didn’t intend all of these to be seen… but you know, sometimes it’s hard to tell with Ziggy.
PROMISE
I was waiting
only waiting
for the time to break through
You are waiting
quiet hating
for the world to break you
I needed you more
Your heart was a mess
You should love yourself more
I should love myself less
I was bleeding
only bleeding
not like a heart attack
You were bleeding
desperate, needing
the knife pulled from your back
I needed you for
so much more than this
You should love yourself more
And I’ll love myself less, promise, promise, promise
Promise I’ll love you more
If you don’t love me less, promise, promise, promise
SCARY
Old man lives in shadow
The door under the stairs
His face in the window
He just frowns and glares
run and hide, run and hide
deep inside, deep inside
Scare-man under the building
Like some fairy tale troll
Gonna go and snatch the children
Hide ’em deep inside a knoll
deep inside, deep inside
step inside, step inside
Bad wolf will come and eat you
Wicked witch bake you in a pie
Green giant takes you up the beanstalk
Troll man is gonna make you cry
make you cry, make you cry
deep inside, deep inside
A SONG FOR YOU
I tried to write a song for you
In a noisy bar after a show
Every night you show me something new
Check please I think it’s time to go
time to go
time to go
time to LET go
You leave me so high and dry
I’ve no idea what to do
Some days I want to scream and cry
Or forget you in the taste of booze (blues?)
time to show
time to show
time for THE show
I tried to write a song for you
But the words wouldn’t come out right
I wish we could just start anew
But no more hiding, no more fight
Time to know
Time to know
Time for OH NO
DARK SIDE
Looking at life
in the back of a spoon
reflected all wrong
dark side of the moon
Looking at you
through the backs of my hands
in the dark of the night
my heart’s making plans
Looking to leave
at the end of the year
that’s what I’m saying
to keep down the fear
Looking at me
At the top of my game
But dying inside
When you don’t call my name
Looking so right
the right kind of smiling
no one would think
that I’m thinking of dying
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Ziggy breaks my heart. Love love love him!
He’s really grown a lot, too.
Oh, Ziggy. I can only hope he’ll grow out of that stage of feeling everything so keenly, and get on a more even keel before he breaks himself apart with all of it.
Poor boys, so many feelings for each other in a world that isn’t very hospitable to them.
I can never tell how emotions come across in written lyrics, where there’s no inflection or melody… but I think these probably give a picture of where his head is these days.
I like the first song the best. I think its cool that we get kinda a peek into Ziggy’s mind
He’s been writing a ton lately, too. This is only a fraction!
The last one makes me cry.
Yeah.
Daron says he wants the truth, but that was a lot of truth to handle in one dose…
Oh, Zig. Breaks my heart. I just want him and Daron to be in love and be happy forever together.
At least I can turn my pain into art, eh?
These are some great lyrics.
They are. I have to wonder if I’ll survive hearing him sing them, though.
The last one </3 Oh gosh…
Is
"< \3"the heart with a knife through it? If so, yeah...@Zig – just when I think I’m in love with Daron, you make me love you even more.
Good stuff, ctan!
You can be in love with both of us. It’s ok. I don’t mind.
I make up little tunes as I read them.
And yes, they break my heart.
Makes two of us.
Oh god. Ziggy. Not sure how Daron kept it together reading that. I didn’t…
He didn’t, really. Just, you know, he expresses it differently.
I interpret ‘Scary’ as about Daron’s continuing struggle with his sexuality. If it is, Ziggy is incredibly perceptive.
‘Dark Side’ is the one that’s really scary. Ziggy is seriously thinking about striking out on his own. I don’t believe he understands that once he does that M3 is dead. If Ziggy murders Daron’s baby it will hurt far more than everything that came before it, combined.
As for dying, I see this not as suicidal ideation, but rather “Dying isn’t such a bad oucome.”
And I know he writes the way I do, which is any thing that seems like it fits in my head goes in, so I song is more likely to be about all the things instead of just one of the things, you know?